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My body and mind are so drained. I am halfway through the semester, and I am lacking the motivation to continue on with the back half. It’s not only school, it’s everything. In the four years that I have worked for my company, I have never had things blow up all at once and to this level. Add to it that Bri has turned into an evil teenage troll, and some days it takes every ounce of energy to crawl out of bed when all I want to do is throw the covers over my head and hide from the world.
What really sucks is that I am spending most of my time doing everything I don’t want to do, and so very little of it doing the things I like and NEED. Each week, the good stuff gets edged out a little more because the icky stuff is taking over. I am never carrying this kind of load ever again. I can’t even formulate a decent Tweet because all day long I am being forced to fight and out think lawyers, while the evenings are spent outwitting professors. The last remaining drop of anything clever is siphoned off by arguing with a 14-year-old that thinks she knows EVERYTHING.
I need to take a week off. I wish I could, but I have auditors coming in-house starting Wednesday, I just found out that my hearing tomorrow has been continued a week, and the schedule will need to be cleared the following week because Phoenix is calling again for the other lawsuit. Somewhere in the middle of all this, I have five mid-terms to take. Oh, and let’s not forget Bri has all-state orchestra.
OK. Vent over. Back to class for another riveting lecture on more stuff I could care less about.
Central Park, NY
March 8th, 2010 at 11:41 pm
I know you want to finish but you are overwhelming yourself!!! BIG HUGS…Love, G
March 9th, 2010 at 6:52 am
Find your Happy place. Honestly, take a few hours for your self. Its not a day or a week that you truly need, but the world will not fall apart if you vanish for those few hours. Heck get a hotel room with a jacuzzi tub and just soak.
March 9th, 2010 at 10:24 am
Hang in there! Are you still doing the yoga- if so, do you find it helps relieve any of the stress?
Keep telling yourself that Bri will settle down soon.At least console yourself, as most mothers probably do, that her turn will come soon enough.
March 21st, 2010 at 8:14 am
Obviously I can relate, I just got back to your blog. But I had this same problem when I was in grad school. Eventually something had to get scaled back. My productivity everywhere started to suffer – work and school – was starting to suffer because I was running on half a cylinder. I ended up cutting down on my class load. It took me longer to get my degree, but I was sane, and much better at everything. Ultimately, I was happier getting top grades and performing at work AND having a few hours with my husband, and more sleep.
I can tell you are a driven person, ma’am, but don’t miss your life . . . get through as best as you can, but if it keeps up to this extent please rethink it.